It's true. I can't stand my life anymore and xmas is just another day for me. My mom isn't feeling too well and possibly has ammonia, and I'm all alone. None of my friends can or wants to hang out with me. Also I'm very poor and jobless. I have no car nor know how to drive...all my life has been going is down and nothing good ever happens. Things just keep getting worse for me and i can't do anything right. I just wish I can die somehow. i don't want to kill myself, already tried like a billion times but it's too difficult. I just wanna die in my sleep, get shot, or ran over. That is my Christmas wish.